Friday, October 29, 2021

Oh why

 What a sad, pathetic life I'm living now, but no will/motivation to get up and live life normally/meaningfully. Oh God, please help me..

Thursday, December 31, 2020

 


Still in dark age 💔💔💔 Hope can look back at this post with a big smile a year from now

Sunday, September 27, 2020

Rindu..

5 tahun takde kerja tetap..arwah mak selalu tanya ada duit ke tak..


Sekarang, bila ada orang lain tanya, terus terkenang & mengalir air mata..


Takpela, time will heal.....hopefully.....



Friday, July 31, 2020

RAYA PERTAMA TANPA MAK

DAN JUGA TANPA KARI

DULU, WALAU DAH ADA KURMA PUN, MAK TETAP AKAN BUAT KARI SEBAB DIA TAU AKU TAK BOLEH MAKAN YANG XDE PEDAS LANGSUNG

New norm. Kena biasakan.......

Sunday, July 19, 2020

Healing but not there yet


Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?, would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide

'Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry!
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

'Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying

I can't go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide

'Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying

I can't go on living this way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's alright

Songwriters: Dave Buckner / Jacoby Shaddix / Jerry Horton / Tobin Esperance

Monday, June 22, 2020

Thursday, June 04, 2020

Breakdown

Single life. Duduk sorang. Memang emotional breakdown akan datang tiba2. Missing the only woman in my life. Tak ada hala tuju dah hidup ni. Just living day to day life, bangun, survive, tidur zzz