Oh why

 What a sad, pathetic life I'm living now, but no will/motivation to get up and live life normally/meaningfully. Oh God, please help me..

 

Still in dark age 💔💔💔 Hope can look back at this post with a big smile a year from now

Rindu..

5 tahun takde kerja tetap..arwah mak selalu tanya ada duit ke tak..

Sekarang, bila ada orang lain tanya, terus terkenang & mengalir air mata..

Takpela, time will heal.....hopefully.....

RAYA PERTAMA TANPA MAK

DAN JUGA TANPA KARI

DULU, WALAU DAH ADA KURMA PUN, MAK TETAP AKAN BUAT KARI SEBAB DIA TAU AKU TAK BOLEH MAKAN YANG XDE PEDAS LANGSUNG

New norm. Kena biasakan.......

Healing but not there yet

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?, would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide

'Cause I'm losing my sight

Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry!
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

'Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying

I can't go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I'm contemplating suicide

'Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying

I can't go on living this way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's alright

Songwriters: Dave Buckner / Jacoby Shaddix / Jerry Horton / Tobin Esperance

Empty

Breakdown

Single life. Duduk sorang. Memang emotional breakdown akan datang tiba2. Missing the only woman in my life. Tak ada hala tuju dah hidup ni. Just living day to day life, bangun, survive, tidur zzz

Mohon dipermudahkan

Rasa hati yang berat tak menipu.

Ya Allah, Kau lepaskanlah seksa emak aku, dengan cara yang terbaik bagiMu 🤲🤲🤲💔😢

Patutla berat hati je semalam..

AT LAST!!!

After 5 years and 7 months!!

upgrade pc :: Completed (At last!)

main WoW :: Cancel 

beli rumah :: Completed 

 beli keta :: Completed 

 kumpul duit+@find chix+kawin ---> settle down :: Incoming (Maybe upgrade monitor first to 21:9 or 4K baby)

Strategy

upgrade pc + main WoW ---> beli rumah ---> beli keta ---> kumpul duit+@find chix+kawin ---> settle down

SEL▲M▲T H▲RI R▲Y▲

Raya Haji

Selambat menyambut Raya Haji & balik kampung next week..& kepada yg di ganu..selamat melarikan diri dari hujan non-stop 5 hari..lapar gile sejuk2 ni..

Puasa

Selamat menyambut bulan Ramadhan. Semoga puasa diberkati semuanya..

jgn x puasa

Taking It Seriously..

Theres actually some retard(s) who took my previous post seriously..what an (tajuk album green day :: american ..wait..wait for it..) *****..

ps: and oh yes, theres actually someone who read my blog :) even though its just a plain borak-kosong & aku-xde-keje-lain-nak-buat & updated like every 7-8 months?

Examination Result


Finally it was published last Friday. After waiting so eagerly for the whole week, at last I succeed in accessing this add..

http://www.petronas.com.my/sms/SMSExam.nsf/Check%20Exam%20Results

After keying in all the details..

Private & Confide

How lovely! Outstanding amount of a few Ks and there you go, an utterly useless page appear on my screen (after waiting for a very loOOooOOOo2oO8oo2oO9ong time, thx to DiGi for the so called narrowbroadband), @the very least, for me. I wonder how many RMs will they get from the blocked-students, for wanting to know their result or graduate who want their cert..none from me though, @least not now. I'm still waiting for the sponsorship unit to process and certify my application, yes PLEASE!

And here is another story..

and I wonder where the money go..oh yeah i forgot the twin towers

And again, no downloading, youtube, let alone fragging for me. Am going to TM Point this week to re-asked them to speed up whatever thing they are notworking to end hundreds of Muareans' misery. And watching REMAJA with no Juliana Evans was like ZZZZzzZZZ. 1 minute was more than enough.

See what I mean?

Optical illusion : There's only 1 gal in the pic

Kami RAKUS!!

Nasi Goreng Sayur Cili Padi (Fried rice)

(English entry)

Now2..this time my entry is on cooking..or recipe..sort of. Being a single guy with no lecture/tutorial to attend (mcm la dulu pegi pon), I had become quite a cook nowadays. It was one of my biggest ambition once..to be a great chef lol. Now lets talk about what I cooked today rather than whining about what my ambition was..

Ok. Here it is..the food/recipe of the day..NASI GORENG SAYUR CILI PADI. Why nasi goreng? Because I'm a lazy ass person..dont wanna mess my kitchen with all the periuks and other containers to cook asam pedas/gulai/sayur (plus I dont really know how to cook asam pedas :D), and then wash them..increasing H20 bill and wasting dishwashing liquids..plus wasting fishes and veggie for the lauk. So nasi goreng sayur cili padi is a perfect food for life under Paklah's (or KJ's?) reign..economy..yet tasty (u'll find later why its tasty..). And the most colorful part is here..the recipe (not the real one, its only used for today)..and the pics..

Recipe:

a)
- Nasi (rice)
- An egg
- Salt
- Ajinomoto
- About 2 teaspoon of oyster sauce
- Cooking oil


b)
- Ikan bilis (about 15-20 ekor) : more = better
- 3/4 onion (bawang besar : more = better : I'm using only 3/4 for being economy here)
- 3-4 garlic
- 3-4 cili padi (more and nazri cant eat your nasi goreng)
- 1 chilli
- A bit of belacan (or 2 bit or 3 bit or more - sesedap rasa :: optional)

c)
- 1 piece of kacang botol
- 3 stack of kacang panjang
- Half stick of carrot
- _ ________ of ______ (add any veggie u like in the free space)

Ready to be fried

Firstly..put all the b) ingredients in a lesung batu & lesungkan it all. Make sure it become very tiny bits or in other words tumbuk sampai hancur la, jgn tau nak blend je..xsedap do blend.

After lesung session, its time to cut2 down all the veggie. Make sure to cut it to very thin pieces to ensure it cooked in a very short time, thus saving your cooking gas and keeping our environment safe for our children's use.

Now its the time we were waiting for. Cooking time!

• Put some oil into your frying pan a.k.a kuali..how much? aa lu pk sendiri.
• Heat up the oil and then put all the tiny2 bits of ingredient b) in the pan, fry it for about 20 seconds.
• Then fastly put the thin veggie into the pan. Add some salt and oyster sauce. Put 1 teaspoon of ajinomoto inside the pan (this is how i ensure my food to be tasty, u may adjust the volume of ajinomoto according to your preference).
• Stir for about 30 seconds, put the egg..make sure u break it first. Then stir again for another 30 seconds.
• Lastly put an appropriate amount of rice. Lets say..2 bowls? Stir it again and again and again until it become one with the fried ingredients (sebati).
• There you go, the food of the day for your whole day. Its much cheaper than nasi goreng ayam sitik, it can be your food for breakfast, lunch and dinner plus it keeps our environment clean!
• And..here is the results..presenting NASI GORENG SAYUR CILI PADI..

Yummy~ It'll look even yummier after I edit the pic..maybe later..

So guys, take out your pen, jot down the recipe on a piece of paper or CTRL+C & CTRL+V it into your harddrive. You cant find better food than this, with its ability to maintain the greenery of our earth, and the yummyness plus the satisfaction in your heart, this is a must cook food!

PS: so damn bored with slow net connection..cant dload..cant game..blog je bole..blog pon blog la..

r@w : ronggeng@woofer (a.k.a s@w : santai@woofer

Ok. Semua dah abis paper. Arep, Ashkam, Meri, Paan, Simah, Cuna, Aso & Saleh grad. So macam biasa la hampir tiap2 sem akan ada projek r@w. Kali ni plannye camni.

31 May 08

0800 : Kumpul@v5 kafe
0830 : Bergerak ke Batu Berangkai, Kampar
0945 : Tiba di destinasi, bersiap & mandi!
1200 : Stat goreng2 & rebus2 hotdog & nugget (sandwich dah siap pagi2 lagi, thx to Effa, Diyana & Anisah)
1300 : End of mandi. Makan2 & bersiap utk ke destinasi seterusnya.
1400 : Bergerak ke JJ. Bakal disertai oleh Arel
1500 : Sampai JJ. Beli tiket wayang, then main bowling sementara tunggu wayang start (additional activity; snooker [Meri, Pingu & aku])
2000 : Dinner@somewhere. Then karok@shogun. GG.

Tapi atas beberapa sebab yg tak dapat dielakkan, program sedikit sebanyak tertangguh..

0950 : Kumpul@v5 kafe

Orang2 yang x ada sebab2 yg tak dapat dielakkan, dah buat aktiviti2 lain. Jep, Jawa & Rambo pegi ambik keta sewa. Ashkam pegi sarap kat sitik, pastu sempat balik bilik makan STRAWberi.
Then bila kereta sewa sampai, Ashkam still makan STRAWberi lagi, so kena tunggu dia la. Akhirnya Ashkam muncul..

1100 : Bergerak ke ATM, USM kafe.

3 keta nasional on the march. saga (Rambo, Pingu, Simah, Paih & Ashkam), Iswara (Arep, Anisah, Effa[adik arep], Diyana & Ipe) & kancil 660 pfftt (Meri, aku, Jawa, Nayi & Jep). Sampai2 kat kafe USM, kancil abis minyak. So..Iswara pi cari minyak..tunda lagi..

Aktiviti minum2 sementara tunggu minyak sampai (terserempak dgn Aishah)

1135 : Bergerak ke Batu Berangkai, Kampar.

Akhirnya..

1230 : Sampai, stat goreng2 & rebus2 hotdog & nugget (sandwich dah siap pagi2 lagi, thx to Effa, Diyana & Anisah)

Akhirnya sampai gak setelah merempuhi pelbagai halangan & hal2 yg tak dpt dielakkan. Upacara mandi2 bermula. Simah dgn aku stat masak dgn Simah sebagai ketua chef.

Upacara mengangkat peralatan

Merebus sosej

Lunch time!

1430 : End of mandi. Makan2 & bersiap utk ke destinasi seterusnya.

Bergaya untuk ke JJ

1530 : Bergerak ke JJ. Bakal disertai oleh Arel

1700 : Sampai JJ. Beli tiket wayang, then main bowling sementara tunggu wayang start.

Since macam dah xsempat je nak main boling, so upacara tersebut dicancelkan. So, kitorang makan2 petang di 3 tempat berbeza. KFC (Aku, Arel, Anisah, Pingu & Meri), Salam (Rambo, Arep, Nayi) & McD (Lain2).

1950 & 2015 : Apa kata hati? Ditonton oleh Nayi, Arep, Diyana, Effa & Anisah. Indiana Jones & The Aliens. Ditonton oleh aku & lain2. Konklusi, tah apa2 cite melayu ni & apa kaitan indiana jones dgn alien??

Somewhere@2100 : Team Apa kata hati? setel menonton. Pegi jemput Chuna kat Medan Gopeng utk aktiviti seterusnya, karok@shogun.

2220 : Team Indiana Jones & The Aliens setel. Folo ke shogun.

Jam plak kat roof parking tu. So kitorang lepak2 dulu sambil melepak2.

"Camni rupe alien tadi" kata Simah

Hasil shopping Simah@JJ

0000 : Karok@shogun. First time aku karok, sebelum ni dengar je. Lagu Rahmat - Di sini kasihku abadi. Duet dgn rumet. Sebenanye lagu tu ada org pilih tapi xde sapa nyanyi. So aku nyanyi je la.

Sidang forum : Camne nak halang Pingu daripada nyanyi ni?

Stairway to heaven
Ok, semua turun minum dulu

0310 : Selesai melalak. Semua pon lapa balik. Ke mapley dekat2 dgn Taman Cempaka gak (hasel..xsedap langsung) utk makan.

0430 : Selesai melantak. Semua pon ngantok. ZzzZZZz. Bergerak balik ke UTP. Thx to all yg menjayakan r@w. r@w rockZ!

PS : thx to Pengerusi baru poli (arel) sudi join r@w.

:: r@w 310508 ::

Ayub - Arel - Arep - Ashkam - Nayi - Pingu - Meri - Paih - Chuna - Simah - Ipe - Jep - Effa - Jawa - Rambo - Anisah - Diyana

GG..abedah..hbd..eol (end of life)

Pos lambat ni..aritu 31 May 2008, bertempat di meja nombor 27, Main Hall, UTP (formerly owned by USM), tepat kul 11.25 pagi, aku mengakhiri life exam aku (paper business organization). No more exam paper after this. Abedah, gg, hbd..eol!!! Next post. r@w. ronggeng@woofer!!!

Kahwin @ 33

Super lama x update blog. xde apa aku nak paste pon. lepas main dota tadi, bosan2 baca la blog adik2 silat ni..pastu click la dari 1 link blog ke link2 blog2 lain & lagi & lagi..lawak gak a membaca luahan hati & perasaan diorang..yg tgh hepi jumpe psgn hidop (hehe)..yg melepaskan tension la..etc2..terasa nak update plak sbb terjumpe benda utk di-paste. ni dari blog ned (ex-hosmet @ V3A-S1)..


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Suami : Lelaki kawin 3 baru lah sah

Isteri : Kenapa pula?

Suami : Cuba terjemahkan ke dalam Bahasa Inggeris, "satu" is one, "dua" is two, "tiga"

isteri (is three). Baru betul dan sah!.

Isteri : Tapi abang kena faham Bahasa Inggeris, terutama tentang "singular" dan "plural"

Suami : Berkenaan apa tu?

Isteri : Satu tu "Singular"; dua atau lebih "Plural"

Suami : Contohnya?

Isteri : One car sebagai singular, two cars sebagai plural. Apa bezanya?

Suami : Ohhh... tambah huruf "s" untuk yang plural

Isteri : Betul tu. Sama juga la untuk abang

Suami : Macam mana pula boleh sama?

Isteri : Satu isteri abang MAMPU, jika dua isteri dah jadi plural, maka abang MAMPUS

tambah "s" je, kan?



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